It's been awhile since I have been here. I do apologize for the lack of attention to my blog. I have a lot on my mind today and it has nothing to do with writing although I suppose it could be turned into something. I should be happy. My youngest is graduating very soon but I'm sad. Things are just not good on the home front. Emotional abuse. Has anyone every thought about it and what it does to a person? To me, Verbal and Emotional abuse are worse than physical. There was a very loud discussion between me and my significant other today that I am most positive many of my neighbors heard. How could you help not hearing all the yelling coming from my doorstep. We fought about our daughter graduating and not being able to do anything for her. I was called lazy and stupid and a bitch. Rude comments were made about the television and many many other things. This has been going on for a very very long time. Years. Most times I either cry or I get angry over it. Today it was a mixture. I cried and I was very very angry. Mostly hurt that after twenty plus years this is STILL going on and nothing ever changes. It doesn't seem to matter how many times the issues are discussed. I am good for nothing, I get not one ounce of respect. I have to find a way to deal with all of this. It's getting to me worse and worse each day. I can't think of a day in the last month I have not cried.